Core Desire is the place of coherence and embodiment, where who we know ourselves to be in a body, with desires, with authentic gender expression, with real needs and feelings and messiness, allows us to feel coherent. Not finished/perfected, not aspirationally sexy or rich, but coherent.
I would never want to be 'finished'. Unfolding, exploring, being curious--probably the ultimate non-sexual (and sexual!) turn-on for me. But for a long time I felt there was something I was chasing, inside myself. Something that wouldn't let me off the hook, wouldn't let me ignore it. And what it asked of me was to keep stripping away all that wasn't truly me. All that had been "given" to me without consent, without discernment, without kindness. And I had grown enough to not be able to tolerate it any more. Honestly, I never really had, but I had to go on my own journey, through all the things I am passionate about (birth, sex, death, plant medicine, witchery, liberation, story, poetry, the soul) to be nourished enough to withstand the stripping down.